30 Dec

Anorexia is an eating disorder in which a person doesn’t want to eat because of fear of getting fat.

You may think that I’m anorexic now. Definitely, NO! A big NO! Well, to be honest I’m fat. Not really. They say I’m chubby but hell, I weigh almost 165 pounds. Now tell me, am I fat or chubby? I’m not a fat kid before. I don’t know what happened to me but as years passed by, I’m become heavier and heavier. I get jealous to people who eat and eat and eat but remain sexy and thin. I want to be one of them. But I looove eating.

There comes a time in my life when I became anorexic. For two months, I ate half rice a day. I don’t want to eat anything. My friend named Patrick* once asked me why I always ate half rice a day everyday. He even told me it’s not healthy and I need to eat more than that. I didn’t listen to him. I wanted to tell him that I’m only doing this because I want to get thin so that he will like me. After two months, I got stomach ache everyday. I feel like I’m going to die because it hurts so much. My skin became dry. I had hair falls. I couldn’t concentrate on my studies. That’s the time I asked myself, “Hey Anne!!! What did you do to yourself?”.

I started eating again. From one rice a day until three rice a day. After one year, I gained so much weight. I want to be anorexic again but I’m afraid of the possible consequences that had happened to me before.

I’m fat and I want to be thin again. But I promise myself, I will not starve myself to death.



2 Responses to “Anorexia”

  1. renxkyoko December 30, 2010 at 5:42 am #

    You can diet without feeling pangs of hunger by eating fruits and veggies. I know it’s easier said than done. I’m constanly battling the bulge myself because I easily gain weight, but you can do it. I’m 5’3″ and weighs 110 lbs, and I’ve had this weight for years now. This is the weight I’m most comfortable with. Try to achieve the wieght you’re most comfortable with.

  2. annerifficweak December 30, 2010 at 8:46 am #

    hey thanks. I’m trying to eat a lot of greens this past few months but my problem is I have a sweet tooth. Argggg…

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