Stalker

So, I read my friend’s blog again. Arggg. I’m such a stalker. I hate myself for reading her private thoughts again. Sorry, but I can’t help myself.

Her blog says about her feelings for this guy again. The guy that she likes and the same guy that I like.(If you read my post, “Friend or Fiend”, you will know the story behind this).

I thought, I’m the only one who always ask signs if that guy and me will be lovers in the future. Honestly I asked for three signs and the results of those signs were telling me that we can be together. That we can be lovers in the future. I am happy. To tell you the truth, I don’t love him but I really really like him.

But then again, I read my friend’s blog and she asked for a sign if there will come a time that what they have before will come back again. The same feelings and the same old them. And guess what, the sign she’s asking for also says that their will have their “time” again.

Is fate making fool of us??? I don’t know if I will ask another sign. I don’t think I will believe on signs again. I mean what if they will be together? We’re friends and that means, you can never date your friend’s ex-boyfriend/lover. That’s one of the golden rules of friendship.

I want my friend to be happy but I also want to be happy.

I don’t want to read her blog again but I want to know her inner thought. Because she never told me a single feeling she have for him.

The situation is so complicated. There are things we wish that might not come true. Things that may change because of him. Because of her. And because of me. I don’t know. I really don’t know what to do. 😦

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