Archive | January, 2012

Just A Quick Message Before I Leave

10 Jan

Hi WordPress people. I have to say goodbye from now. I am going to the rehabilitation facility today and I don’t when will I come back. Maybe for a couple of months. We’re not allowed to use phone and internet there. I’m going to miss you guys. When I come back, I’ll write all of my experience there. Again, I forgot the name of rehabilitation center. It something like Rebirth Rehabilitation? I’m not sure. The address is 71 Wakas South, Pilar, Bataan 2101.

See you next time guys.

Much love, Anne 🙂

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A Day with my Friend and Other Stuff

8 Jan

It’s been a long, busy and happy day for me. After weeks of staying with different families and not going outside their homes, finally, I was able to go Manila to again to meet my friend. It took me awhile before my mom finally agreed to this, seeing my college friend, Erlich.

I had to leave Bataan at 8 am this morning because the travel time from Bataan to Manila is 3 hours(traffic excluded). I arrived at 11am. Pretty early ’cause we agreed to meet at 12noon or 1pm. While waiting for her, I strolled around the mall and looked for books. But then, instead of buying books, I bought this one; Slate 2012 Planner!!!

Slate 2012 Planner

Artistic pages for those who love ARTS!


Map of the Philippines. I can shade or color the spaces of places I've been to. 🙂 Great for travelers.


There's a page for your ULTIMATE BUCKET LIST!

It is simple but I still love it. It is available in Fullybooked branches. 🙂

At 1pm, I was already with Erlich, her boyfriend(Jeremy) and her sister(Erica) and brother(Brando). We ate at Steak House. We laughed, talked about things (of course the story behind the you-know-what-already). At 3:40, we watched Alvin and the Chipmunks 3. I had to tell you something. I haven’t watched the first two movies of the Alvin and the Chipmunks. But that didn’t stopped from enjoying the movie. It was hilarious. The whole cinema were laughing so hard. Alvin was such a brat, funny chipmunk!!!! Hahaha. 😀 We also went to Timezone. We played different games. It was fun. Really. I couldn’t remember the last time I’d played in an amusement park and the last time I’d watched a movie with a friend. Yes, seriously. The last two movies I’d watched in the cinema, I was alone. And that was 6 months ago??? We ate goto and batchoy for dinner.

The only thing that I regret was, tan tanan!!! I’VE FORGOTTEN TO TAKE PICTURES. Why am I such a fool?? Well, the reason I’ve forgotten about my camera is, I am busy being happy. I am busy enjoying every single moment I’m with those people. I don’t know how many months before I’ll see them again. I don’t know when is the next time I’m going to smile and laugh like this again. For me, what matters most is that I’m happy. Right???

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I know I’ve promised to post the recipients of the Candle Lighter Award but guys, I have to break that promise. I am sorry. As I’ve said, I’m busy today ’cause I’m with my friends. And I am too lazy to check every single blog that I am following here in WordPress. Look, I’m only using my phone and the font is so smaaaaaall. I have a poor eyesight and I don’t have my glasses with me. I’m really sorry. Tomorrow’s going to be a busy day, too. I have to go back to Bataan early in the morning and I have to buy a lot of things needed in the rehabilitation facility. And in the evening, I have to pack my things for Tuesday. And in Tuesday, I have to leave my phone at home. *sob* 😦 . But I’ll try to say goodbye to all of you tomorrow or on Tuesday.

About the nomination, I’ll post it when I get back, okay??

Candle Lighter Award

7 Jan

This morning, I found out that someone has given me a Candle Lighter Blog Award. It is given to people whom you think gives light and hope to the blogosphere. I am overwhelmed by this award. As you all know, I am a suicide survivor. Not just once but twice. Maybe, the reason I am still here is because I have to tell my story to the world and give hope to people like me who is suffering from depression and has suicidal tendency. It feels good knowing that people like Judy (the one who gave me the award) thinks I give light to the world by not quitting and not giving up on my dreams.

You just have to accept this award and it’s up to you if you want to nominate people for this award. I’ll nominate some but I’ll post about it later or tomorrow.

Thank you Judy for this award and I am humbly accepting it.

Visit her blog jayjaysfavorite .

And oh thank you also for nominating my other blog My World in Photographs for this award. You can check out my other blog. It is a photo blog and I’ve just started it yesterday.

Have a good day everyone. 🙂

Newest Blog Site

6 Jan

So I’ve told you yesterday that I’m going to make another blog, a photo blog. I can’t wait any longer so I’ve already made a photo blog. Hahaha. 😀 So, here’s the link My World in Photographs .

Please do support it. I hope you’ll follow it too. 🙂

Photo and Travel Blog

5 Jan

I was browsing some Photo and Travel blogs here in WordpPress early this morning. I was stunned by the beauty of the world through their photo blogs. Like them, I also love to travel. I also love to take photos. I have four cameras; an automatic Olympus camera (a vintage one, I use 35mm film for this camera), an Exilim Casio Camera (digital), Diana F+ Lomo Camera (I also have fish eye lens for this. I use 120mm film here) and a Nikon Coolpix Camera (semi-pro). I’m only using my Nikon and Diana F+ for now ’cause those two are my favorites. I’m planning to buy a DSLR camera when I already have a job. Mind you guys, I am not a professional photographer and I don’t know if you’ll like my shots. It’s just a hobby. And it makes me happy.

I was thinking if I should make my own photo/travel blog. Actually, I am already planning for this. When I come back, I want to have my own photo/travel blog. But I still have to think of my blog’s name, description, etc.

But before that, I want you to look at some of my shots.

Tree


Sunset in Nagbalayong Beach -- Nagbalayong, Morong, Bataan, Philippines


Skyline -- Balanga, Bataan, Philippines


Paris -- One of my dream destination


Keanu -- my baby, my dog


Mariveles Mountain


Dambana ng Kagitingan, Mt. Samat -- Pilar, Bataan


Boracay, Philippines

New Year. New Theme.

5 Jan

It’s been awhile since I last changed my WordPress theme. Since, it’s already New Year, I’ve come to think of having a new theme for my personal diary/blog. So yesterday, I looked for more than a hundred themes here in WordPress and finally fell in love with BUENO theme. I think it’s the most appropriate theme for my blog’s title, I Am Ms. Brightside. What do you think?? And I also added a header photo to show my love for sunsets. There’s something about it’s beauty that I can’t explain. Aside from that, I’m also in love with nature and photography. Yes, I took the photo above!!! You can check out my post entitled, Sunsets.

Have a good day everyone. 🙂

The Reason Why I Am Leaving

4 Jan

January 10. Tuesday. The date that may changed my life forever.

A lot of my friends are asking where I am going. I can’t tell them. My mom and I agreed that only a few people should know about my decision. She’s afraid that people will judge me again. Of course, they will. So I’ve told only a few people about this; my best friend (Erlich), my college room mate (Ate Arianne), and some WordPress people.

But now I’ll tell all of you the reason why I am leaving. The place where I am going. But promise me, you have to keep it a secret. Especially to some of my friends who know this blog site of mine. If you happen to read this, please don’t tell anyone.

This is it. I am going in a rehabilitation center/mental institution. Surprise. Surprise. Again, please don’t judge me. This is the hardest decision I’ve ever made. I’ve think about it not just twice but a couple of times before I’ve finally agreed to this. But I guess, this is the smartest thing to do. I’m not sure of myself. Sometimes, when I am alone, when I’m sad, I still think of killing myself. What if I did it again and then I ended up dead? it will just break my mother’s heart. And I don’t wanna leave her. Now that I know how much she loves me. I don’t wanna hurt her again. I’m her only child and she’s my only parent. No one will take care of her when she’s old and sick. I am the only person she can count on. I am doing this not just for me, but for her. I love my mom so much that now, thinking of leaving her breaks my heart. So I have to do this. I need to do this. It’s hard leaving all of my possessions behind. A life without internet, phones and television. A place where you know no one. A room full of strangers who has mental illness. Depressed and suicidal like me. I don’t know how long will it take before I’ll be home again. A month, a couple of months or maybe a year. I really don’t know. It’s also hard for my mom; her only daughter will be living like a prisoner in a rehabilitation center.

I still don’t know the name and exact address of the facility but it is owned by my psychiatrist. My mom has to extend her work contract because of this. She’s going to spend 20000 to 40000 php (500 to 1000 USD) a month for my rehabilitation. I know my father’s not going to help her with the expenses. Knowing he has a daughter with mental disorder, he’ll just think of me as a disgrace in his family. To think that I am also his illegitimate daughter. And I am using his surname. In his head, I know he’s saying these words, “WHAT A SHAME!” But, I’m still hoping that he cares for me. He’s still my father, right?

The rehabilitation center is located near our place. Somewhere in Pilar, Bataan but I’ve said, I don’t know the exact address. Most of the patients there are drug addicts because it is primarily a drug rehabilitation center but there’s still room for people like me. They have patients like me. I’m not expecting any visitors ’cause only a few people know about it. I just hope I’ll see my friends before I leave. I’m gonna miss them. And it’s hard when you don’t get any updates from the outside world. As if I am living in Big Brother’s house.

I hope that my stay there will heal my heart and clear my mind. I hope that when I get back, I am a better person.