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Just a Quick Post

1 Nov

Hello there. I’m back from my almost one week vacation. I have a lot stories to tell and pictures to post.

Last week was really fun. I’ve made new friends, tried things for the first time, etc. But anyway, I’ll post it later this evening. I’m going to meet my highschool bestfriend this afternoon. I’m at my house. Yes, FINALLY. I miss my room!

Okay, I have to go. Have a good day everyone. 🙂

P.S.
I have a new crush. I feel like highschool again. 🙂

If This Isn’t Love, Then What Is It?

30 Jan

I had a guy friend. We always teased each other. We always hang around in school. We ate lunch together sometimes. We fooled arounf

We’re not really close at first but I’d known him for almost 4 years. I met him when I enrolled in our school. We’re both part-scholar. After 2 years, we became classmates but he couldn’t remember me. Ouch! One reason was I was fat now and I was skinny way back in 2007. Still, we’re not close at that time. Junior years and we became classmates again. And now that we’re seniors, we’re still classmates.

Time went by, we eventually became friends. And now, he’s one of my closest friends in our class. As I’ve said, we always teased each other to the point that sometimes I would tell him that I had a crush on him. Though that’s not true. He’s always telling me that if I became thin again, he would ask me to be his girlfriend. I believed that that statement’s also a joke.

So our class had our duty in Lipa, Batangas for two weeks. His group and my group lived in one dormitory. Every morning, I went to their room to have chat with him and my other friends. But things had changed this time. When I told him again that I liked him, I knew in my heart that’s not a joke. I knew I mean those words. And when he told me he liked me too I wished that what he said was true and not a joke. I couldn’t look straight into his eyes. I was afraid he would know that my feelings for him was starting to develop into something deeper. On our last day in Batangas, we played cards ’til the wee hours of the morning. I slept on their room. I was shocked when he told me he was going to sleep beside me. I thought he didn’t mean it because there were still three spare beds. But I was wrong. He really slept beside me. We slept in the same bed. I couldn’t face him. I didn’t know what to do.

I don’t know if our feelings our mutual. I don’t know if I’m falling for him. I don’t know if his jokes are half meant. But one thing is for sure, I know this isn’t right.

Can You Keep A Secret?

25 Jan

I just finished reading Sophie Kinsela’s Can You Keep A Secret last week. It’s kinda funny and I like the story. It reminds me of my secrets I don’t want others to know. Secrets I’d rather keep to myself than tell anyone. I have a lot of secrets. Secrets that I know others can’t keep to theirselves. I’m not saying I don’t trust people because that’s not true. I trust people easily but when it comes to secrets, i just don’t feel like telling it to others. That’s why my friend, Patrick*, told me I was a deep person.

I am not going to tell my secrets here. Cause you’re just going to laugh at me or pity me. I’m going to tell here one big secret that makes me proud of myself. I mean, just like Emma(the narrator of the book), a stranger told me her secret. She’s not really a stranger, but she’s my professor way back in high school. She told me a secret that only her close friends and family know. I, a stranger to her, know something that can change her life if I told it someone else. But that’s not me, I’m not going to tell it to anyone. I’ll tell her secret in here but I will not tell who she is, where she lives and any other details about her.

She told me something about her family. She couldn’t bear a child because her husband is infertile. They decided to adopt a child because they really wanted to have one. The big secret in here? Her son doesn’t know that he’s adopted.

So that’s it. That’s her secret. I don’t know why she told me about that. but it makes me proud that someone like her trsuts me. She told a secret of her family and like I said, can change their lives.

I’m good in keeping other people’s secret. I know a lot of secrets of my friends, family, etc. but this secret is someone that makes me feel I am worth trusting. 🙂

Friend or Fiend?

16 Jan

I like someone. I mean I really like him soo much that I intend not to tell anyone in our class about it. Until one time I told my groupmate that I like him then my closest friend in our room then my groupmates then my one of our classmates again. So only a few of our class knew about it.

The reason why I didn’t want to tell anyone/only a few know about it was because I didn’t want people to tease us. It would just make me feel anxious and awkward around him. I mean we’re not even close and we barely talk. And also the primary reason was my friend(one my closest friends) and him were an item. And I didn’t want to ruin what they had because of my stupid feelings for him. You know, friendship is more important than boys. I never told my friend about it. So time passed. They weren’t an item anymore. He liked one of my classmates though. Almost one year had passed and then I confessed to her that I liked him. I mean I like him because I still like him up to now. I told her the reason why I only told her that day. She said that’s okay with her because she didn’t even care about him and she didn’t like anymore.

Then, it’s our Christmas Party and one of our classmates teases us and the whole sections knows about what I have for him. And guess what, they even made a fan club for us. So this friend of mine, who “used to like him” told me that she’s our number one fan. Whenever we talk, he’s always our favorite subject. I tell her every single detail of what I feel for him. Though it’s only a crush and nothing deeper than that.

Until, I read her blog. I read every single word of it and I try to comprehend it because I can not fully understand why she wrote that blog. She knows that I know her blog site and I’m going to read it sooner or later. It says there that he still likes him. That until now, she regrets the time that had passed when they still had their “time”. She also wrote that she’s going to regret it forever. Not necessarily forever.

When I read that, I feel stupid. Stupid for telling her about him. Stupid for not being sensitive enough of her feelings. But how will I know it? She seems to be so happy listening to my endless stories about him. She even asks questions. And let me tell you this, everyday, she always tell me that SHE DOESN’T LIKE HIM ANYMORE. That past is past.

I want to talk to her about this but I’m afraid this will affect our friendship.

Should I tell her her or let things settle as time goes by?

Highlights of 2010

5 Jan

There were so many things that happened to me last year. But the highlights of my 2010 were the ones that I did or went to for the first time. First time to go to a place, first time to drive, etc. etc.

JANUARY

(Patrick* and me)

This is the first time my friends and I played bowling. Well, actually, that’s my second time but it’s their first. We also played billiards. This time, it’s first time. Hahaha. 🙂

FEBRUARY

(Joana, Neilsen*my bestfriend*, Me, Tita Joy)

It’s Valentine’s day. Happiest Valentine’s I ever had. We went to Bulacan and then Laguna. This is the first time I went to ENCHANTED KINGDOM. I was so happy at that time though we don’t have much time to enjoy more.


(Ross, Clarice, Kathleen, Nix, Dan, Krish, Effy, Anne, Frances, Imo, Me, Erica, Iriz)
Left to Right, Top to Bottom

The first time we had our night swimming. That’s us. That’s BSN123. This was also my first time in Bosay Resort

MARCH

(Iriz, Noel, Darren, Imo, Ross, Christian*partly hidden*, Clarice, Lucky*my LUCKY*, Cesz, Anne, Mych, Krish, Dan, Krizzelle, Cate, Dawn, Me, Kathleen, Nix, Effy, Seiki)
L-R, T-B

First time we went to Christina Villas and first time Clarice celebrated her birthday with us, the BSN123. 🙂


(Ate Lou, Krizzelle, Harold, Angelie, Bianca, Me)


(Bianca, Angelie, Me, Ate Lou, Krizelle)

Our first road trip. My group mates and I originally planned to go to Enchanted Kingdom only. But when we were there, we decided to go to Tagaytay. It’s my first time to go there. We were at People’s Park in the Sky. The place was awesome. I could see the nearby towns in there and that’s the place where I shouted to the whole world that I love Lucky. Hahaha. 😀

APRIL

(Me, Khemwel, Kathleen, Ate Lou)

First duty in Batangas with Group 89-A. We lived in an apartment for 5 days. I am their cook. I’m the only one who knows how to cook in our group.

MAY

(Cates, Khemwel, Krizzelle, Angelie, Me)

We’re at Bianca’s place and it’s our first to go there. We’re also the first one whom she invited to their house. It’s a great pleasure. 🙂 At that time time she taught me and Krizzelle to drive. And it was my first time. I’m kinda nervous but at least, I was able to do a great job. I was able to drive her car. 🙂

JUNE

(Imogen, Ross, Erica, Jaeson, Me, Iriz, Krish, Clarice, Darren, Effy, Mary Joy, Seiki, Reycel, Cesz, Fifi)

That’s us, the BSN123 buddies. We went to Mall of Asia to celebrate Fifi’s 19th birthday. It’s not my unforgettable first but it was she who said that it’s her unforgettable first. It’s because, this was the first time she celebrated her birthday with us and her first time to dance on the dancefloor. She’s so happy. She’s a special friend to me that’s why I posted it. 🙂


(Nix, NIx’s friend, Dan, Me, Fifi, Effy, Darren, Erica, Kathleen)

It’s the premiere showing of Twilight Saga: Eclipse. It’s our first time to watched a premiere showing movie. We had soooooo much fun and there were soooo many freebies. Free magazine, free pizza, free vodka, free ice cream, free twilight masks, etc. 🙂

JULY

No highlight for this month. Hahaha. 🙂 Ahmm. Maybe our first duty in FEU-NRMF.

AUGUST

(Krizzelle, Angelie, Me)


(Bianca, Krizzelle, Leigh, Michie, Angelie, Me)


(Bianca, Harold, Michie, Krizzelle, Cates, Angelie, Me)

The first time we celebrated Leigh’s birthday. We went to their place in Batanagas. It’s also my first time to rise the seasaw. Hahaha. 😀 It’s never too late to try new things. 🙂

SEPTEMBER

(Cate, Krish, Reycel, Cesz, Effy, Anne, Me, Seiki)


(Karen, Effy, Lalaine, Christian, Mamiku, Me, Dawn, Cesz, Imogen, Ross, Reycel, Seiki, Lucky, Dan, Nix, Kathleen, Marie, Gabriel, John, Nikomedzhi, HArold, Krish, Cate, Jaeson, Anne, Darren, Noel, RJ)

It’s Nix’s 19th birthday. I gave her a book. My first time to gift a book. 🙂 The title of the book was Hush, Hush written by Becca Fitzpatrick.

OCTOBER

So it’s my birthday. My first time to celebrate my birthday on a bar. I’m with Dan, Nix and Darren. Dan was the first one to greet me personally and he hugged me. Patrick was the first to text me at exactly 12 o’clock. Happiest birthday so far.:) Sorry, I don’t have any pics on my birthday.


(Anne, Anne)

Anne went to our house in Bataan for the first time. She’s also the first one I invited to stay in our house for vacation. I had so much fun while she stayed there. We had mani – pedi. We watched DVDs all night and we even decorated our Christmas tree. We went to Ukay Ukay and bought clothes. It’s also my first time to shopped there.

NOVEMBER

(Eva, Henrico, Gerald, Hazel, Angelica, Julie, Me, Ruth, Mary Anne, Brenty)

This is our group. We called ourselves MOCTAH-kada. This was our first bonding last year. We ate with our bare hands in Eastwood. We window – shopped and just fooled around. 🙂

DECEMBER

This MOST UNFORGETTABLE of all!!! THE HIGHLIGHT OF ALL MY HIGHLIGHTS LAST YEAR. Tantananan!!!!!

That’s me and my crush, LUCKY. It’s our first picture together. And I am so happy. Actually, I don’t remember that I have a picture with him. I’m drunk at that time. So I am surprised to see that we have our very own portrait. I like him soo much. Really. And I’m looking forward to have more pictures with him. Hahaha.

That’s all. ‘Til next time. 🙂

The Perks of Being A Wallflower

4 Jan

My friend named Fifi told me about this book. She’s been searching for this book for almost 2 months. She couldn’t find any copy because it’s always sold out. I also tried to find a copy of this book so I could give it to her. She really wanted to have this book.

So yesterday, I told her if she already have this book. She said NO. So without any hesitation I went to Mall of Asia. I went to every bookstore but still the book’s sold out. One of the bookstores finally told me that they made reservations. So I made my reservation. After that, Fifi phoned me that she already have one. Someone gave her that. And then, while I was talking to her, one of the bookstore’s staff called me. Guess what??? They found a copy of this book. One of their costumers canceled the reservation. They asked me if I want to buy the book. I said yes though Fifi had her own now. I bought one for myself.

This is the second book I bought this year. But this is going to be the first book I’m going to read for the year 2011.

I am happy to have this book. Maybe this book is really FOR ME 🙂

Last Chance

3 Jan

This is my first blog for the year 2011. And yet it is one sad story.

Today is my first day of class after the Christmas vacation. I’m so excited to see my classmates again. Most especially, Anne Garcia (read my post, WE’RE NOT JUST FRIENDS, WE’RE SISTERS. So today, we’re only going to have our classroom team building and our unit exam. We’re all expecting that we will be dismissed early. So, I asked Anne if she wants to go out with me so we can have our UBE moments again(NOTE: UBE means Ultimate Bonding Experience). She said yes so I was expecting that she would come with me.

But after our class, I asked her again and then she said, she’s going to eat with our other classmates and their going to what they called RK. I don’t know where’s that place.

Of course, I was speechless. For the nth time around, she forget that she have a friend named ANNE VALDEZ. It hurts so much that one of your best friends has already abandoned you because of someone else. And also the primary reason I want to be with her today is that I want to talk to her about our FRIENDSHIP. I want to know what’s the reason behind all of these.

Maybe she have already forgotten all our memories together. She have forgotten that I’m her friend. And maybe, I should forget her too. 😦

New Year’s Resolution

31 Dec

Tomorrow is the start of the year 2011. Another year, another lists of resolutions to make and break. Hahaha. 😀 Funny isn’t it that most people make New Year’s Resolution but they always fail to do those things? In my 19 years of existence, I’ve never made a list of my own New Year’s Resolution. I’m afraid that I might not accomplish those things. It will just break my heart. I hate promises that are made to be broken, and New Year’s resolution is one of those promises.

This year I’m planning to have my own. I don’t know what comes to my mind. Maybe just for a change. I don’t know if I’m going to fulfill those but argg…. I’ll try my best. No. I’ll do my best. So here’s the list of my so called “ANNE’s NEW YEAR’s RESOLUTION.”

>I’ll lessen my intake of alcohol.
>I’ll smoke occasionally.
>I’ll eat more greens and fruits.
>I’ll exercise 3 – 4 times a week.
>I’ll be a wise-spender. I will not buy things which are not important.
>I’ll be an early bird. I’ll always wake up late.
>I’ll stop partying. God!!! I can’t do this. Erase. Erase. I’ll party only when I don’t have any errands to do.
>I’ll try to be more mature. (I can’t believe that I’m going to finish college at the age of 19).
>I’ll be responsible enough now. (This is the time to be really INDEPENDENT. )
>I’ll make my mom proud.
>I’ll be STRONG enough to face the challenges ahead.

……That’s my resolution for 2011. But wait, is that the right way of making a New Year’s Resolution? I really don’t know. Hahaha. 😀

Now, let’s see what are your New Year’s Resolution for the year 2011.

Happy New Year Guys.

–Anne

Most Boring Blog Ever

30 Dec

I’ve been staring at my laptop for an hour now. I don’t know what to do. No one is online. I try to phone my friends but they are already asleep. I read Twilight again but it makes me sleepy. Duh?? It’s already 3 o’clock in the morning.

So I tell myself, “You should write.” But then, I don’t know how to start. I can’t think of any topic to write. I try to write about being insecure but I can’t form any sentence about it. So instead, I write about what’s going on mind. And that is NOTHING. Arggg. You might think that this is the most boring blog you’ve ever read. (Feel free to comment if you find this blog to be BOOORING.) Sorry guys. But I can’t think of anything else. My brain cells are not working. My mind is totally blank right now.

Maybe I’ll right something interesting this morning. Something readers will enjoy reading.

I entitled this blog, “Thinking of Nothing” but I am going to change it to “Most Boring Blog Ever”.

Agree?

Anorexia

30 Dec

Anorexia is an eating disorder in which a person doesn’t want to eat because of fear of getting fat.

You may think that I’m anorexic now. Definitely, NO! A big NO! Well, to be honest I’m fat. Not really. They say I’m chubby but hell, I weigh almost 165 pounds. Now tell me, am I fat or chubby? I’m not a fat kid before. I don’t know what happened to me but as years passed by, I’m become heavier and heavier. I get jealous to people who eat and eat and eat but remain sexy and thin. I want to be one of them. But I looove eating.

There comes a time in my life when I became anorexic. For two months, I ate half rice a day. I don’t want to eat anything. My friend named Patrick* once asked me why I always ate half rice a day everyday. He even told me it’s not healthy and I need to eat more than that. I didn’t listen to him. I wanted to tell him that I’m only doing this because I want to get thin so that he will like me. After two months, I got stomach ache everyday. I feel like I’m going to die because it hurts so much. My skin became dry. I had hair falls. I couldn’t concentrate on my studies. That’s the time I asked myself, “Hey Anne!!! What did you do to yourself?”.

I started eating again. From one rice a day until three rice a day. After one year, I gained so much weight. I want to be anorexic again but I’m afraid of the possible consequences that had happened to me before.

I’m fat and I want to be thin again. But I promise myself, I will not starve myself to death.

I WILL NEVER BE ANOREXIC AGAIN.