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Move On!

21 Nov

Move on.

Such an easy word to say but one of the hardest thing to do.

Why can’t I move on? It’s been a week since our break-up but still, I feel hopeless. I want to cry the whole day. I keep on blaming myself why he left me. I love him so much. I don’t know what to do with my life anymore. I’ve tried talking to my psychiatrist but I just couldn’t open up to him what’s really the root of my sadness and what causes the pain that I am feeling. All I could tell him is that I’m tired of feeling that I am not good looking. But the truth is, I feel ugly because the only guy that I loved just left me with another girl. I’m insecure with his new girl. I am jealous. I envy that girl because she’s the one who owns his heart now. I hate myself. Why can’t I just accept the fact that he doesn’t love me anymore.

Why can’t I move on?? Please tell me how. The pain is killing me and I just couldn’t take it anymore. 😥

Someone Just Broke My Heart

17 Nov

How would you feel if your man cheated on you? It hurts, isn’t it?

November 13, 2012.I sent a message to my boyfriend (we’ve been together for more than 8 months and I met him in the rehabilitation center). I told him that we should break up because I couldn’t feel his affection anymore. He didn’t reply so I thought he didn’t like the idea of that; us, breaking up. So I browsed his Facebook account only to find out that he’s already in a relationship with another girl. What hurts more is that they’ve been together even before I broke up with him. It felt like it’s the end of the world for me. My first boyfriend cheated on me. So that’s why he’s being cold whenever he’s with me. I couldn’t take the pain any longer that day so I called him. He told me he had to leave me because the people around us didn’t want us to be together. He also told me to move on. I was crying the whole night. He’s my first boyfriend, my first kiss and the first guy to broke my heart.

Right now, I’m still in the process of grieving. I am pretending that everything’s fine but the truth is, I am deeply wounded. All I want to do is cry and scream. I want him back. I want our relationship to be just like before.

I love him so much that i don’t think I can handle another depressive situation in my life again.

I am sick and tired of being hurt. 😦