Tag Archives: Dream

Just A Dream

19 Dec

I thought none of my friends read my private blog. Then I found out lfrom a friend that this guy is worried about me because of what he read here. I’m shocked. I’m overwhelmed. I wanna cry’cause at least someone’s worried about me.

Right now, I’m at the beach. Writing my thoughts. With stiches and bruises. I’m hurting myself. Because I want them to see me. In Tagalog “nagpapapansin”. I’m so sad right now. I’m lonely. I want to go the sea and let myself flow to the deep water until I drown. I’m not happy with my life. I envy those people who have a perfect life. A perfect family. Me? My mom’s not answering our calls. My papa doesn’t care. My uncle slapped in my face and cursed that he will kill me. My lesbian cousin told that I should be killed in another place. And now my other cousin told me that she’s not accepting me in house because I told everone that she’s having affair with her daughter’s teacher. I don’t know where to go now. I only have 220 pesos on my pocket. I am homeless. I’m thinking of killing myself. I hate it, everytime I tried to commit suicide, I ended alive. Maybe God wants to punish me more. -‘m enough of this. I wish tomorrow when I woke, I have a beautiful house with lotsa money. With true friends. No ones gonna hurt. I have everything I’ve wanted. I have a perfect family.

I Want To Study Abroad!

5 Dec

I’ve been independently living this past few months. No work, etc. So I just travel a lot. Then suddenly, I realize that I want to work/study abroad. I love to travel plus I want to experience being a student again. I want to study as architecture or engineering or fashion design or culinary. I also want to know about the country’s culture, food, history, nature and arts. But in order for me to work or study, I need to have a sponsor plus money. I think I need to have at least half a million pesos (more or less 10,000 US dollars). And that’s my problem. Where can I get that big amount of money? Who can be my sponsor?

Maybe, it’s going to be just a dream. 😦 *sob* I really want to study abroad. Can someone help me? Just kidding. I just want to tell the world what I want.

Anyways, have a good day. 🙂

Mt. Samat (Dambana ng Kagitingan/Shrine of Valor)

27 Nov

It all started when I made a list of places I’ve want to visit in the Philippines. I called my friend and asked him to come with me and then he invited his cousin(he’s also our friend). So yesterday(Nov. 26), we went to Mt. Samat together with other hundreds of Bataenos for the Diocese of Bataan’s Annual Pilgrimage. It took us almost 3 hours of non-stop walking/hiking before we reached the peak of the mountain.

I’m from Bataan, and I’ve been to Mt. Samat twice but I don’t have pictures. So this’s the third I’m going to the historical mountain in Bataan. The Mt. Samat! As you can see in the pictures, there is a giant cross at the peak of the mountain. This is symbol of heroism of the Filipino soldiers who fought for the Filipino’s independence against the Japanese colonization. Former President Ferdinand Marcos was the one responsible why we, Bataenos, have this historical place. FYI, he’s one of the Filipino soldiers. It is also one of the most beautiful places here in Bataan aside from the beaches, forest, hanging bridge, etcetera.

Aside from the giant cross (also known as Dambana ng Kagitingan / Shrine of Valor), there is also a museum. You can see photos of the World War II, different kinds of guns, bombs and the likes which they used during the war. There is also a big map of the peninsula of Bataan.

It’s not easy going to Mt. Samat. It hurt my feet. I almost had an astha attack. I almost gave up but I still tried. When I reached the peak, there was a strange feeling. A feeling of euphoria. It felt like my dream were coming true. Going to Mt. Samat gave me strength to face the challenges I have to face in life. The only reason I’d decided to go there was to travel. It’s just for fun and adventure. But you know what, this one simple travel of mine to Mt. Samat taught me TWO things: