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Anorexia

30 Dec

Anorexia is an eating disorder in which a person doesn’t want to eat because of fear of getting fat.

You may think that I’m anorexic now. Definitely, NO! A big NO! Well, to be honest I’m fat. Not really. They say I’m chubby but hell, I weigh almost 165 pounds. Now tell me, am I fat or chubby? I’m not a fat kid before. I don’t know what happened to me but as years passed by, I’m become heavier and heavier. I get jealous to people who eat and eat and eat but remain sexy and thin. I want to be one of them. But I looove eating.

There comes a time in my life when I became anorexic. For two months, I ate half rice a day. I don’t want to eat anything. My friend named Patrick* once asked me why I always ate half rice a day everyday. He even told me it’s not healthy and I need to eat more than that. I didn’t listen to him. I wanted to tell him that I’m only doing this because I want to get thin so that he will like me. After two months, I got stomach ache everyday. I feel like I’m going to die because it hurts so much. My skin became dry. I had hair falls. I couldn’t concentrate on my studies. That’s the time I asked myself, “Hey Anne!!! What did you do to yourself?”.

I started eating again. From one rice a day until three rice a day. After one year, I gained so much weight. I want to be anorexic again but I’m afraid of the possible consequences that had happened to me before.

I’m fat and I want to be thin again. But I promise myself, I will not starve myself to death.

I WILL NEVER BE ANOREXIC AGAIN.