Tag Archives: random thoughts

I’m Back

1 Oct

Hello there!!! It’s been more than a month since my last post here. Sorry. Well, now I’m back, I have a lot of stories to tell you. Happy and sad stories. And when I write about the sad story, please don’t be sorry for me. Actually, I’m not yet ready to talk about it. But promise, sooner or later you’ll all know what happened to me last month. So this is it for now. Bye. Bye.

P.S. I missed WORDPRESS!!!! 🙂

Laziness

13 Jun

Ok. Right now I’m here at SM Pampanga. This our second day of Final Coaching for the upcoming NLE. I don’t want to attend the review cause I am too lazy to listen to my lecturers. And also I don’t have any friends there. How sad is that??

So now, I don’t have any place to go.

I think I’ll go home instead or meet my friends.

My Favorite Fruit

27 May

Day 2 of Blog Everyday Project.

My favorite fruit of all time is ripe mangoes. Philippine mangoes to be exact. Because, Philippine mango is the sweetest among all mangoes around the world.

Take a look on the picture above and imagine the taste of its sweetness. 🙂

Blog Everyday

25 May

Ever since I bought my new semi-pro camera, I can’t stop taking pictures. I love photography since grade school. I also love writing/blogging. Because of that, I decided to blog everyday. I will post a picture that I’ve taken and then write my thoughts about it. 🙂 You think it’s a good idea??? Oh I think so. 🙂

Here’s my first entry for my Blog Everyday Project. 🙂

Blue Sky.

For me, blue sky symbolizes God. Why?? It reminds me to look up when I feel down, to see its beauty even if everything seems so ugly. It gives me hope. It gives me peace of mind.

Blue sky reminds us that even though we’re in this world full of chaos, just look above and everything will be just fine. 🙂

Photography

25 May

Photography is one of my interests. I love taking pictures of anything under the sun. For me, pictures = memories. I am not a pro. It’s just a hobby. Here are some of my shots.








I hope you like it.

Blog post from my blogspot account http://iamtonianne.blogspot.com

Review Class

21 May

Hello there!!! I’m back!!! It’s been more than a month since I last posted here in WordPress. I’m kinda busy last month. And also my mom’s here in the Philippines. She prohibited me from using my laptop!

Summer started last month but I couldn’t go the beach. Why??? Because although I’ve already graduated college, I still have to enroll in a review class for the upcoming Nursing Licensure Exam. Sad. 😦 Actually what makes me sad is the fact that I’m away from my college friends. My mom insisted that I should enroll here in Bataan so “I could concentrate on my review class”. Arggg!!! And congratulations to me because I finally found a friend in my review class. In one month, I only got one friend. How nice is that? I am friendly person but almost all of my classmates know each other. They already have group of friends. I feel like a loner. 😦 And that one friend of mine is always absent!!!! Grrrr.

I am not enjoying my review class and the fact that I don’t even like our review center.

I badly miss my friends. I want to have group study with them. I want to be back in Manila. 😦

Anonymous

2 Feb

I want to keep myself anonymous. I am using a pseudo name here in WordPress. The primary reason is I don’t want my friends to read my blog. It’s fine with me when others whom I don’t personally know read my blog. I’m afraid that when my friends read my entries, they will have different interpretation than what I really mean.

My friends keep bugging me about my wordpress account. They are dying to read my entries. Maybe I am over-exaggerated. But I don’t know, I keep receiving messages from my friends asking what my wordpress account is. I try to tell them that my account is for myself only. I also try to tell them that if they want to read my entries, they have to give me their wordpress account first. I’m using bargaining now. Hahaha. 😀

Am I fair to them for not telling them my wordpress account or am I being selfish?

5 Years From Now

31 Jan

The clock is ticking. Graduation is coming. New life for us. New experiences and new challenges to over come.

I never see it coming. Living with my own after graduation. Leaving the safe corners of our classroom. Parting ways with the best people I’ve met in my life, my college friends.

Thinking about all of the bad things that happened to me way back from freshman year to first semester of senior year makes me happy because finally, after four years of hard work, I will be able to give my diploma to my Mom. No more stressful days and sleepless nights. No more exams, return demonstration, thesis, projects et cetera. Those are the things students don’t want in their life. We all want to get rid of those things. Those things only ruin our remaining days in college.

But also makes me sad. Really sad. Sometimes, it makes me wanna cry. My last two years in college are the best moments I have. I have the best section, the best group, the best friends in the whole wide universe. Graduating means, we have to part ways. We have to go back to our home. After graduation, no more sleep-over’s at friend’s house. No more out of towns. No more parties. No more manicure – pedicure. No more movie dates. No more dinners. No more drink-all-you-can marathon. No more DVD marathon. No more happiness with them. No more time with them. No more things we used to do.

It’s killing me. They are like my siblings. We’re like a one big happy family. Our section are inseparable. Now, we have to go to our own path, do we still have time for each other? Can we still do the things we used to do??

After 5 years, can they still remember our happy moments? Do we still have communication?

……Can they still remember me? 😦

If This Isn’t Love, Then What Is It?

30 Jan

I had a guy friend. We always teased each other. We always hang around in school. We ate lunch together sometimes. We fooled arounf

We’re not really close at first but I’d known him for almost 4 years. I met him when I enrolled in our school. We’re both part-scholar. After 2 years, we became classmates but he couldn’t remember me. Ouch! One reason was I was fat now and I was skinny way back in 2007. Still, we’re not close at that time. Junior years and we became classmates again. And now that we’re seniors, we’re still classmates.

Time went by, we eventually became friends. And now, he’s one of my closest friends in our class. As I’ve said, we always teased each other to the point that sometimes I would tell him that I had a crush on him. Though that’s not true. He’s always telling me that if I became thin again, he would ask me to be his girlfriend. I believed that that statement’s also a joke.

So our class had our duty in Lipa, Batangas for two weeks. His group and my group lived in one dormitory. Every morning, I went to their room to have chat with him and my other friends. But things had changed this time. When I told him again that I liked him, I knew in my heart that’s not a joke. I knew I mean those words. And when he told me he liked me too I wished that what he said was true and not a joke. I couldn’t look straight into his eyes. I was afraid he would know that my feelings for him was starting to develop into something deeper. On our last day in Batangas, we played cards ’til the wee hours of the morning. I slept on their room. I was shocked when he told me he was going to sleep beside me. I thought he didn’t mean it because there were still three spare beds. But I was wrong. He really slept beside me. We slept in the same bed. I couldn’t face him. I didn’t know what to do.

I don’t know if our feelings our mutual. I don’t know if I’m falling for him. I don’t know if his jokes are half meant. But one thing is for sure, I know this isn’t right.

Friend or Fiend?

16 Jan

I like someone. I mean I really like him soo much that I intend not to tell anyone in our class about it. Until one time I told my groupmate that I like him then my closest friend in our room then my groupmates then my one of our classmates again. So only a few of our class knew about it.

The reason why I didn’t want to tell anyone/only a few know about it was because I didn’t want people to tease us. It would just make me feel anxious and awkward around him. I mean we’re not even close and we barely talk. And also the primary reason was my friend(one my closest friends) and him were an item. And I didn’t want to ruin what they had because of my stupid feelings for him. You know, friendship is more important than boys. I never told my friend about it. So time passed. They weren’t an item anymore. He liked one of my classmates though. Almost one year had passed and then I confessed to her that I liked him. I mean I like him because I still like him up to now. I told her the reason why I only told her that day. She said that’s okay with her because she didn’t even care about him and she didn’t like anymore.

Then, it’s our Christmas Party and one of our classmates teases us and the whole sections knows about what I have for him. And guess what, they even made a fan club for us. So this friend of mine, who “used to like him” told me that she’s our number one fan. Whenever we talk, he’s always our favorite subject. I tell her every single detail of what I feel for him. Though it’s only a crush and nothing deeper than that.

Until, I read her blog. I read every single word of it and I try to comprehend it because I can not fully understand why she wrote that blog. She knows that I know her blog site and I’m going to read it sooner or later. It says there that he still likes him. That until now, she regrets the time that had passed when they still had their “time”. She also wrote that she’s going to regret it forever. Not necessarily forever.

When I read that, I feel stupid. Stupid for telling her about him. Stupid for not being sensitive enough of her feelings. But how will I know it? She seems to be so happy listening to my endless stories about him. She even asks questions. And let me tell you this, everyday, she always tell me that SHE DOESN’T LIKE HIM ANYMORE. That past is past.

I want to talk to her about this but I’m afraid this will affect our friendship.

Should I tell her her or let things settle as time goes by?