Tag Archives: Rehabilitation

Someone Just Broke My Heart

17 Nov

How would you feel if your man cheated on you? It hurts, isn’t it?

November 13, 2012.I sent a message to my boyfriend (we’ve been together for more than 8 months and I met him in the rehabilitation center). I told him that we should break up because I couldn’t feel his affection anymore. He didn’t reply so I thought he didn’t like the idea of that; us, breaking up. So I browsed his Facebook account only to find out that he’s already in a relationship with another girl. What hurts more is that they’ve been together even before I broke up with him. It felt like it’s the end of the world for me. My first boyfriend cheated on me. So that’s why he’s being cold whenever he’s with me. I couldn’t take the pain any longer that day so I called him. He told me he had to leave me because the people around us didn’t want us to be together. He also told me to move on. I was crying the whole night. He’s my first boyfriend, my first kiss and the first guy to broke my heart.

Right now, I’m still in the process of grieving. I am pretending that everything’s fine but the truth is, I am deeply wounded. All I want to do is cry and scream. I want him back. I want our relationship to be just like before.

I love him so much that i don’t think I can handle another depressive situation in my life again.

I am sick and tired of being hurt. 😦

I’m Back

6 Nov

Hello my fellow bloggers! 10 months had passed and I am back again. Yes I’m still alive! Mt 10 month rehabilitation’s over and now, I’m ready to face the world again.

And because of the long waiting, I’ll be posting a lot of my rehabilitation stories soon.

I’ll try to update my blog everyday but I can’t promise you that ’cause I’m only using the computer where I am working now. Actually, I am now working as a facility nurse where I was rehabilitated before. A volunteer nurse to be exact.

So, just wait for my future stories. Okay???

Just A Quick Message Before I Leave

10 Jan

Hi WordPress people. I have to say goodbye from now. I am going to the rehabilitation facility today and I don’t when will I come back. Maybe for a couple of months. We’re not allowed to use phone and internet there. I’m going to miss you guys. When I come back, I’ll write all of my experience there. Again, I forgot the name of rehabilitation center. It something like Rebirth Rehabilitation? I’m not sure. The address is 71 Wakas South, Pilar, Bataan 2101.

See you next time guys.

Much love, Anne 🙂

A Day with my Friend and Other Stuff

8 Jan

It’s been a long, busy and happy day for me. After weeks of staying with different families and not going outside their homes, finally, I was able to go Manila to again to meet my friend. It took me awhile before my mom finally agreed to this, seeing my college friend, Erlich.

I had to leave Bataan at 8 am this morning because the travel time from Bataan to Manila is 3 hours(traffic excluded). I arrived at 11am. Pretty early ’cause we agreed to meet at 12noon or 1pm. While waiting for her, I strolled around the mall and looked for books. But then, instead of buying books, I bought this one; Slate 2012 Planner!!!

Slate 2012 Planner

Artistic pages for those who love ARTS!


Map of the Philippines. I can shade or color the spaces of places I've been to. 🙂 Great for travelers.


There's a page for your ULTIMATE BUCKET LIST!

It is simple but I still love it. It is available in Fullybooked branches. 🙂

At 1pm, I was already with Erlich, her boyfriend(Jeremy) and her sister(Erica) and brother(Brando). We ate at Steak House. We laughed, talked about things (of course the story behind the you-know-what-already). At 3:40, we watched Alvin and the Chipmunks 3. I had to tell you something. I haven’t watched the first two movies of the Alvin and the Chipmunks. But that didn’t stopped from enjoying the movie. It was hilarious. The whole cinema were laughing so hard. Alvin was such a brat, funny chipmunk!!!! Hahaha. 😀 We also went to Timezone. We played different games. It was fun. Really. I couldn’t remember the last time I’d played in an amusement park and the last time I’d watched a movie with a friend. Yes, seriously. The last two movies I’d watched in the cinema, I was alone. And that was 6 months ago??? We ate goto and batchoy for dinner.

The only thing that I regret was, tan tanan!!! I’VE FORGOTTEN TO TAKE PICTURES. Why am I such a fool?? Well, the reason I’ve forgotten about my camera is, I am busy being happy. I am busy enjoying every single moment I’m with those people. I don’t know how many months before I’ll see them again. I don’t know when is the next time I’m going to smile and laugh like this again. For me, what matters most is that I’m happy. Right???

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I know I’ve promised to post the recipients of the Candle Lighter Award but guys, I have to break that promise. I am sorry. As I’ve said, I’m busy today ’cause I’m with my friends. And I am too lazy to check every single blog that I am following here in WordPress. Look, I’m only using my phone and the font is so smaaaaaall. I have a poor eyesight and I don’t have my glasses with me. I’m really sorry. Tomorrow’s going to be a busy day, too. I have to go back to Bataan early in the morning and I have to buy a lot of things needed in the rehabilitation facility. And in the evening, I have to pack my things for Tuesday. And in Tuesday, I have to leave my phone at home. *sob* 😦 . But I’ll try to say goodbye to all of you tomorrow or on Tuesday.

About the nomination, I’ll post it when I get back, okay??

The Reason Why I Am Leaving

4 Jan

January 10. Tuesday. The date that may changed my life forever.

A lot of my friends are asking where I am going. I can’t tell them. My mom and I agreed that only a few people should know about my decision. She’s afraid that people will judge me again. Of course, they will. So I’ve told only a few people about this; my best friend (Erlich), my college room mate (Ate Arianne), and some WordPress people.

But now I’ll tell all of you the reason why I am leaving. The place where I am going. But promise me, you have to keep it a secret. Especially to some of my friends who know this blog site of mine. If you happen to read this, please don’t tell anyone.

This is it. I am going in a rehabilitation center/mental institution. Surprise. Surprise. Again, please don’t judge me. This is the hardest decision I’ve ever made. I’ve think about it not just twice but a couple of times before I’ve finally agreed to this. But I guess, this is the smartest thing to do. I’m not sure of myself. Sometimes, when I am alone, when I’m sad, I still think of killing myself. What if I did it again and then I ended up dead? it will just break my mother’s heart. And I don’t wanna leave her. Now that I know how much she loves me. I don’t wanna hurt her again. I’m her only child and she’s my only parent. No one will take care of her when she’s old and sick. I am the only person she can count on. I am doing this not just for me, but for her. I love my mom so much that now, thinking of leaving her breaks my heart. So I have to do this. I need to do this. It’s hard leaving all of my possessions behind. A life without internet, phones and television. A place where you know no one. A room full of strangers who has mental illness. Depressed and suicidal like me. I don’t know how long will it take before I’ll be home again. A month, a couple of months or maybe a year. I really don’t know. It’s also hard for my mom; her only daughter will be living like a prisoner in a rehabilitation center.

I still don’t know the name and exact address of the facility but it is owned by my psychiatrist. My mom has to extend her work contract because of this. She’s going to spend 20000 to 40000 php (500 to 1000 USD) a month for my rehabilitation. I know my father’s not going to help her with the expenses. Knowing he has a daughter with mental disorder, he’ll just think of me as a disgrace in his family. To think that I am also his illegitimate daughter. And I am using his surname. In his head, I know he’s saying these words, “WHAT A SHAME!” But, I’m still hoping that he cares for me. He’s still my father, right?

The rehabilitation center is located near our place. Somewhere in Pilar, Bataan but I’ve said, I don’t know the exact address. Most of the patients there are drug addicts because it is primarily a drug rehabilitation center but there’s still room for people like me. They have patients like me. I’m not expecting any visitors ’cause only a few people know about it. I just hope I’ll see my friends before I leave. I’m gonna miss them. And it’s hard when you don’t get any updates from the outside world. As if I am living in Big Brother’s house.

I hope that my stay there will heal my heart and clear my mind. I hope that when I get back, I am a better person.