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Candle Lighter Award

7 Jan

This morning, I found out that someone has given me a Candle Lighter Blog Award. It is given to people whom you think gives light and hope to the blogosphere. I am overwhelmed by this award. As you all know, I am a suicide survivor. Not just once but twice. Maybe, the reason I am still here is because I have to tell my story to the world and give hope to people like me who is suffering from depression and has suicidal tendency. It feels good knowing that people like Judy (the one who gave me the award) thinks I give light to the world by not quitting and not giving up on my dreams.

You just have to accept this award and it’s up to you if you want to nominate people for this award. I’ll nominate some but I’ll post about it later or tomorrow.

Thank you Judy for this award and I am humbly accepting it.

Visit her blog jayjaysfavorite .

And oh thank you also for nominating my other blog My World in Photographs for this award. You can check out my other blog. It is a photo blog and I’ve just started it yesterday.

Have a good day everyone. 🙂

Newest Blog Site

6 Jan

So I’ve told you yesterday that I’m going to make another blog, a photo blog. I can’t wait any longer so I’ve already made a photo blog. Hahaha. 😀 So, here’s the link My World in Photographs .

Please do support it. I hope you’ll follow it too. 🙂

1st Year Anniversary

28 Dec

Today marks the 1st Year Anniversary of my WordPress Blog, Annerifficweak. It has evolved from being just another wordpress blog to a personal blog. It has changed its blog name too, from “Strongest Among The Weakest” to “I Am Ms. Brightside”. How ironic because I am not strong and I can’t even look at the bright side of life this past few months. But I’ll try to be one. Promise.

Let me say THANK YOU to all of my blog readers. To my 25 followers, thank you for continuously supporting my blog. And to those who’ve been with me through the roughest and hardest days of my life, thank you for all the love, care and support you have given me. To all of my stalkers, haha, just kidding, thank you also for always visiting and checking up on how’s my life doing by reading my blog post. This blog has helped me a lot. I can write all of my feelings here without judgment from others. I can share my life’s ups and downs without people telling me, “I don’t care.” I’ve met different people from different sides of the world whom I considered as the best people in my life. Thank you. Thank you.

So, let us all greet I Am Ms. Brightside (formerly known as “The Strongest Among Weakest”) a HAPPY 1ST ANNIVERSARY.

***I hope you’ll continue to support my blog site and I hope to get more followers and readers too.

Hopeless

17 Dec

I told you, depressions is taking over me. I hate my life. I hate them for doing this to me. I’m already for what big mistake that I did. Isn’t it enough that I don’t have money and I am just living with my cousin’s family? I got no money from my parents. I don’t have work. I only haVe 300 pesos I don’t know what to do.i I’ve tried searching for a job but I don’t qualify. I badly needed a job. My mind’s going crazy ’cause of my problems and no on is willing to help me.I don’t care if my job is about cleaning the toilets, collecting garbage, washing other’s clothes, becoming a housekeeper / nanny. I really don’t care. I just need to support myself. I want to be successful like those I’ve watched on tv. I already admitted my mistakes and I am ready to learn. I don’t want to live with my cousin anymore who’ve always telling me that she doesn’t have money to support my needs and my dog too. I’ve tried searching for jobs but I don’t qualify to be their employee. As I’ve said, I only have 300 pesos so I can’t start a business with just that kind amount of money. I asked Mom to give me money to prepare my papers going abroad. I know, I’m a nursing graduate and I’m only 20 years old to work as a domestic helper or nannny. I don’t care. But my mom, doesn’t agree with me. She’s not sending money to me. Even money to prepare my passport. How cool is that. I feel hopeless. My father has another family and for sure he’s not going to help me either. My relatives are financially unstable. I really want to go abroad to work. I can’t stand living here in the Philippines. If I just have at least 60000 in my pocket, maybe I’m already working abroad now.I don’t know where to ask help anymore. I’ve been crying the whole night. The truth, I want to kill myslef again. I’ve taken 27 tablets of Clonazepam already this morning. I don’t know why it hasn’t effected yet. I want to killed myself. No one’s willing to help me financially, emotionally and mentally. My friend’s their all gone. They’s just there when they need me. When I still have money. Even my relatives are like that. But now, they’s all gone. I’ve been good to them but now, I’m the worst person in the world for them. I also sell my two possessions before so I have somethinng to used for my everyday need. Now I only have my dog, my camera and a phone. I forget to tell you, I’m not living in our house because my mom doesn’t want to. And my dad, he doesn’t care about me. He has his own family. I’m really tired. I promised not to do the suicide thing again but what’s happening, without someone helping my financial needs or just helping me to work abroad, I’m sorry I have to do this. Before wrting this blog, I’ve already take almost 30 tablets of Clonazepam. I can’t stand straight now. I’m feeling drowsy. I wish I’ll have a comatose in one hour, two hours, three hours or more. I just need someone who can lend me money to start my new life. I just want someone who will love me like I want to be love by family. DREAMS DO NOT COME TRUE!

Good bye world. Goodbye wordpress friends. It’s nice reading you thougths. It’s nice sharing my problems with you.

No Pretentions

22 Oct

I’ve been staring for 5 minutes on my phone (I’m using WordPress for Android phones). I really don’t know what to write/type. To those who already read my previous post (Am I a Bad Person?), you might think I’m the worst person in the world. And honestly, I want to delete that post. But I want you to know who I am. I started this blog to have a personal diary. I don’t want to pretend someone I’m not. I’m not a good girl. Everybody makes mistakes. I want people here to know the real me.

I know that I’m not the only one here in WordPress who has the same problem as mine. Please do me a favor, write down your problems. Write down you feelings. There are maybe a lot of people who’ll judge you. But there are also, maybe a few, who will understand. Stop pretending you’re happy. Stop pretending you have a perfect life.

Just be yourself. Just like what I did. And I do not regret it.