January 16, 2013 — we became official couple.
January 30, 2013 — I broke up with him because he dated his ex girlfriend.
February 1, 2013 — he came to see me and told me he loves me and he wanted to live with me in one house as life time partners.
(…….4 hours later —- he broke up with me.)
After 2 weeks of being together, he finally called it off. 2 weeks, yes, short isn’t it? And yet it is the most wonderful time that ever happened to me.
His name is Ryan. We’ve known each other for 6 months. Where did I met him???? Well, of course, here in the rehabilitation center. We’re both ex-patients. I was a depressive patient with disobedient behavior while he is a drug addict. An ex-addict. He’s 32 years old while I’m only 21 years old. He had been in a lot of failed relationship before including his live-in partners. While I only had one relationship in my life time. He had 2 kids with 2 different women. Well, of course, I don’t have any. So how come, we became together as a couple? First things first, I am now a nurse here in the rehabilitation. So he’s my patient when we fell in love with each other. It’s the first week of January when we both found out that our feelings are mutual. It’s with the help of my workmate. But we had to hide our feelings because it is strictly prohibited in the rehabilitation to fall in love. So our only means of communication was my workmate. Days after that, I found out that he’s going home after he’s 6-month rehabilitation. We’re both happy because finally we could be together. January 16 was the date he went home. But before he left the rehabilitation, he held my hand and told me he’d be back for me. Then he gave me a scarf and he wrote there, Mahal kita Anne. Babalik ako sa’yo. (I love you, Anne. I’ll b back for you.) That night, he called me and told me he loves me. I told him I love him too. The next day, he went to the rehabilitation to see me. He hugged me and give a peck on my left cheek and again he told me he loves me. The next day, it’s my day off from work. So, I went to his place. I met his family and he told them that I am his girlfriend. His family likes me. I slept at their place. We went to the seashore. We dreamt of our future. We talked a lot of things the whole night. January 20 when we had our first date. We went to mall and then to church. The following week was even happier. He cooked afritada for me. We bake together. And then I spent my 2-day off again at their place. We were so happy being together. We watched movies. I cooked food for him. He told his friends that I am his wife. We bonded with his family. Things were perfect until my mom found out I was with him. She didn’t like him because of his reputation. So she told the staff in the rehabilitation about us. And that’s the start of the impending chaos. The executive director wanted us to break up. She talked to Ryan’s mother. And then, another problem came. His ex girlfriend came to see him and he didn’t told me. His aunt told me about them. I was so angry so I broke up with him. After 2 days, he came to see me. He said I was the one he truly loves. And so I believed him. But of course, it’s not a happy ending. My workmates talked to him. As I’d said, my boss wanted us to break up. I don’t know what kind of shit they told him. All I know was that they ruined our relationship because after he talked to them, he broke up with me. He told me, he wanted to find himself first. He told me he didn’t love me that much, etc. He said sorry. And that’s the end of everything.
I believe in everything he said to me; every promises he made. I gave up everything for him. My mom told she doesn’t want to see me again. And now, I have a restriction order. I wasn’t allowed to go outside the facility. I feel like I am a patient again. Truly, there’s a lot of consequences of loving him. I don’t regret any of this but how I wish he didn’t give up on us. It’s so sad to know that I am the only one fighting for our relationahip. Moving on is the only way to go on with my life. But it’s not easy.
I love him so much that it hurts….
…. but still, I’m willing to wait til he comes back to me.